I named this article “About MIND” because naming it “Mindfulness and Me” or “Buddhism and Me” would simply be wrong because I am nowere near knowing enough about any of these things to say what my relationship towards it is.
To tell you the truth I was always interested in many things and had open mind to new learning and learning all I could and trying to think about it. And all my love for Manga and Anime and Japanese culture and Korean culture and all the eastern cultures and stuff that seems so different and enchanting and interesting from ours but yet somehow familiar probably led me to one day discover or be more interested into stuff like Buddhism and the kind of modern and buddhism inspired Mindfulness and also the Four Agreements philosophy (although that is not so much eastern as it is western, well at least the place from which this comes is on the west from my country so…).
I do not know how I got into Mindfulness but it was what actually made me to finally buy a book about Buddhism. I am also researching about Biddhist centers here and I hope I could also find a Mindfulness center (but chances for that are pretty low I guess).
Somehow I feel the affinity to Buddhism and Mindfulness maybe because they do not tell me to do something but everything is up to me, if I feel like meditating I can and if I am not really capable to hold my focus on breathing or anything and my mind wanders, so what that happens and that what minds just do – that is thinking. But so far I have very little experience with it to say if I will become a real Buddhist or if I will just take from it what is the closest to my heart and my own philosophy and understanding. There is no saying if after some time I will still be meditating and doing Mindfulness. But if not I hope that I will at least learn something from it.. But I sencerely hope I will be able to keep with it and so far my heart tells me that it is something worth my time and something close to what I would like and something close to my inner world.
Right now I am listening and watching a lesson Jon Kabat Zinn gave at Google in I think 2007 and so far I have thought “oh he is right” so many times that I stop counting it… Sometimes it seems a bit weird – well weird is the best word I can come up with – but then I think ” I am still at the beginning”. The way he is talking about it makes it so much more interesting and fascinating because he is making it fun and even joking it is serious but at the same time if you fall alseep, like one woman said she does every time, or if your mind wanders so what that happens, maybe get more sleep, have a cold shower.
I do not know what all this will do to me but so far after a few of the mindfulness meditations I had, using apps for now, helped me to calm down and have a little peace. So lets see what will happen later.
Wish me luck 🙂